Uncertainty

So, we had a first coronavirus-related death a few hours ago. As expected, it is a 66 years old dude from Rio. I say "as expected", because everything was clear a few days before his death, reading articles about him was almost like watching his disease's progression in real time.

Although he died today, all the hell broke loose yesterday.

If before that reading Greek news was like "Meh... Whatever... Meh... Whatever... Meh... Whatever...", yesterday it was more like "Oh... Wow... Ugh... Shit... Really?.."

The celebrations of the Independence Day are cancelled (for the first time in the modern history), kids will have to go to school instead of Easter holidays to catch up with the educational programm, all the National Opera events are cancelled, surgeries will be performed only in urgent and extraordinary situations, events in SNCFCC are also cancelled etc etc.

We had a few black Mondays in a row (and still counting), so now we have a full scale recession with plummeting markets plus global epidemic of deadly disease plus exacerbating migrants crisis plus a war with Turkey seems as inevitable as never before.

All this happened in a matter of not months, but weeks, who could predict this on the 1st of January?

Hell, who could predict this on the 1st of February?

So I've been reading these news the whole day, and in the evening I went to Torche concert in Temple club. The doors were supposed to be opened at 20:30, so I arrived at about 20:45, and guess what? I was the first person to enter the venue! And I was the only one there (except for staff and bartenders) for good ten minutes! Total fucking cringe. For me, coming the first one to the concert is one the cringiest things I can think about. Not like being one of the first in the line, but sitting in a totally empty club for ten minutes. You look at people who work there and they look at you and you understand that they are thinking "What a fucking freak!" Absolutely awful experince, I had an idea to leave the place and go home.

Anyway, there were about forty people at the venue when the concert started. Fucking hell. The leader of the band addressed the crowd (if this could be called crowd) saying: "Thank you for coming! Huh... Or should I say for coming out? Anyway, this is our last concert of this tour, which started two days ago!" He was meaning that their band had been supposed to support Russian Circles in their European tour, but Russian Circles cancelled ("postponed") their tour a week ago due to fucking coronavirus, so Torche had to play just one or two shows on their own.

So I suppose there will be more cancelled concerts.

In fact, concerts were my life for the last twenty fucking years, I attended a rock concert for the first time exactly twenty years ago, in the spring of 2000.

And this is how it all ends, I guess.

At every show I've attended this month, there was at least one moment when I asked myself looking at the stage: "Will it be my last time? Will it be my last time? Will it? Will it?" No, but really.

Well, I hope our country won't be quarantined. Otherwise we'll all be totally screwed up.

It's strange to think in what time we are living; strange, weird and exhausting.

The uncertainty grows, it grows every day.

And it's not about the disease itself, it's about everything else. I don't care if I fall ill or even die, but what does it change? Will my indifference affect in a positive way global markets? Will it prevent an excalation between Greece and Turkey? No, it will not.

And the number of questions grows.

Will Greece be quarantined? And if yes, then when? Will all the concerts be cancelled? Will I be able to travel or to escape this country? How dire will be the economical consequenses? What should I do? Will I be able morally, physically and finacially to go through all this shit which becomes more and more gruesome with every hour, with every day?

Uncertainty leads to anxiety, anxiety leads to stress, stress leads to poor health, poor health leads to disease, disease leads to death.

I have no plans as of now, no tickets for concerts or planes. Maybe it's good. Some people talk about procrastination, but there is no such thing as procrastination, just a combination of laziness, cowardice and stupidity. But maybe in some cases it is even good? - Probably not. No, it is never good, this combination.

At least, for some reason the lighting of the Olympic flame is neither cancelled nor "postponed", although some (or should I say "many"?) people doubt if Olympic Games in Japan will take place this year or will take place at all.

In any case, the Olympic flame will be lit up today and in a week it will come to Athens. Probably.

Hell, in what an age we are all living.

Just writing something to relieve the stress.

P.S. Machine Head have canceled their Burn My Eyes anniversary tour across the UK and Europe due to the coronavirus. - Πριν από 13 ώρες